Acceptance

Awaken and I feel sick
Like butterflies dying in my stomach
Now I cannot sleep
The visions creep behind my stare
Giving me the reality
Of dying in a nightmare
Don't say that it doesn't mean anything
Don't say you can't die in your dreams
I'm running through a familiar hall
The nameless overwhelming
They keep pushing me they're pulling me apart
What I think what I feel what I say
Well it doesn't seem to make a difference to anyone but me
You can't imagine what I see when I dream
It's a wonder that I have not been locked away
I don't know why I care who can say
Does a little part of me die every night I close my eyes
I shut my eyes and dream
Don't look right don't talk right why are you not right
Don't dress right don't walk right I'll show you the light
I wanna be your friend I'm gonna help you blend
Into an All-American
Clean you up real good like you know I should
You'll never be yourself again!"
Now I know what they mean when they say
That resistance is a lesson in futility
They can grab they can pull they can break
To prove they're strong but I will awake and realize they were wrong
So wrong about me