Starting Again

and it started again
and I meant every word
and I like what I said
and I liked what I heard
and I started to think
I could think about starting again

we were laughing again
over memories and wine
and the years in between
didn't seem a long time
when I smile she knew why
In a while it was starting again

and I started to think
I could feel again
all the bad times seemed unreal
when she looked in my eyes
the cheating, the lies, the things that were wrong
seem far behind
and I started to think
I could care again
and my fears all disappeared
when she called me by name
I knew that she changed
the flaws where all gone
the saint remained

but it started again
when I asked her to stay
and she said there's this friend who's in town just today
and she really felt bad
but she had to be leavin' again
and she left me again
as she left me before
still pretending she cared when we kissed at the door
but I saw in her eyes
that the lies were all starting again
just when I'd started to feel again
when all the bad times seemed unreal
when it all seemed so right
and I thought that tonight if she said she cared
that she really might
just when my fears disappeared again
and I heard what I wanted to hear
it all started again
and I knew what that meant
it wasn't the start
it was really the end