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dear matthew I like you a lot I realize you're in a relationship with someone
right now and I respect
that I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future and you
want to come visit me in california
I would be open to spending time with you and finding out how old you were when
you wrote your first song
dear jonathan I liked you too much I used to be attracted to boys who would lie
to me and think solely about themselves and
you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time I used to say the
more tragic the better the truth is
whenever I think of the early 90's your face comes up with a vengeance like it
was yesterday
dear terrance I love you muchly you've been nothing but open hearted and
emotionally available and supportive
and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in and pushing
you away I remember
how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch and cry in front of you for
the first time you were the best platform from
which to jump beyond myself what was wrong with me
dear marcus you rocked my world you had a charismatic way about you with the
women and you got me
seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let me get away with
kicking my own ass but I could never really feel relaxed and looked out
for around you though and that stopped us from going any further
than we did and it's kinda too bad because we could've had much more fun
dear lou we learned so much I realize we won't be able to talk for some time
and I understand that as I do you
the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could we were
together during a very tumultuous time
in our lives I will always have your back and be curious about you about your
career your whereabouts