Self-Butchery

Madness appears brutally,
Ready to practice on myself!

Slowly I'm loosing my senses,
Feeling this atrocious pain,
Powerful and so intense,
Taking the control of my brain!

As I practice my self-destruction,
I'm able to reach my paroxysm!
While I, Disembowel my chest,
My suicidal attemps has failed!

Eminent destruction of my body,
Is this the deliverance I was expecting?
Plunging my hands in my stomach...
Waiting for the final butchery!

Still continuing my pogrom on myself,
Such horrible thing to taste, I'll never reach the end!
Am I , blaming myself again!
Sinful actions, I'm falling in despair!!!

This terrible thing took my body and my soul!

Butchering my scarful corpse, and drinking my blood!
Now I open my torso, Insatisfied I eat my guts!
Questionning situation, why I'm still alive?
My soul won't leave me, what't the next step to mortality?

Body mutilation, wonded in my cranium,
There's no explanation I can't die!
Looking at my carcass putrified and maimed,
Crucified by my soul, my suicidal attempts have failed!

Slowly I retreive my senses,
The heinous pang is now gone...
Forced to see this desolating reality, my organs are all around my body!

MENTALLY AGRESSED,